My Relationship with Chocolate

I just wrapped up nearly a month of travel, most recently spending a week in Boulder deeply immersed in a brand-new Eating Psychology Teacher Training program with the Institute for the Psycholgy of Eating. I'm super jazzed to be acquiring additional knowledge and skills to share the powerful messages of eating psychology and mind-body nutrition with as many folks as possible.
 
On my flight home, I reflected on how much my relationship with food has changed over the years. Throughout the training, the event host kindly provided an array of healthy snacks like fruit, nuts, herbal teas and dark chocolate.
 
There was a point in my life when I would have been completely preoccupied by that chocolate. Every minute would have been fixated on how I could sneak some into my pocket to devour later when I was alone. My mentor, Marc David, calls this game "Hide & Eat."
 
I was ashamed to be seen eating something I felt I didn't deserve or couldn't have because my body was less than "perfect." I was tormented by chocolate, cookies, candy, cake--anything that I deemed as bad, fattening and off-limits.
 
Sound familiar?
 
Deprived to Virtuous
A few years later, after I started eating healthier and shed some weight, my relationship with this so called bad food changed again. For the most part, I didn't want it except for the occasional indulgence. However, when I didn't eat it, rather than feeling deprived as I once had, I felt virtuous, like a halo-wearing, in-control good girl who was better than everyone else.
 
Can you relate to this, too?
 
Neurotic to Neutral
These days, when presented with sweet treats, I eat them if I want them and don't if I don't. The experience is completely neutral. I am no longer consumed by that mental tug-of-war over whether or not I deserve to eat something. My choices no longer make me feel ashamed or superior.
 
I never ate that dark chocolate simply because when I checked in with my body, it didn't want it. It did, however, want--and thoroughly enjoy--the blueberry scones from a local bakery (which I ate without shame in front of my green-juice drinking peers).

Food As Our Teacher
As with all relationships, my relationship with food will continue to evolve. So will yours.
 
As with every life phase, every food and eating phase you experience is here to teach you something if you're willing to listen. Every chapter is a beautiful opportunity for personal and spiritual growth. Take a moment to reflect on how this might be true for you.